Yesterday my laptop crash. It was second time it crash and go to service center in 30 days time span. Been a software developer if your machine crash on which you spend 13-14 hrs a day, it will be hard for you to survive. I am lucky that I got backup computer to manage while I get my laptop back. I am not sure why, but last few months are very hard on me. Got all sort of problems I can imagine. Everyday I see and live a new life, new problem and ultimately a new solution. It is hard to face these situtation that I am dealing with, but if i think about them as third person, I really feel it is the learning curve of my life, though it has my life on stack.

I always wanted a life full of such things, and want to experince them, I am doing now. But I found that my preperation to fight these situation fails, and I broke somewhere deep in my heart. Even a smallest thing said to me or happen to me break my concentration and ability to perform. But I don’t have any choice to work on.

One of my client says to me, “I wonder why you choose a career in computer when you always have bad luck with it, I am the one who has a tech guy who always have his computer down. ”

That is true about me, but even with down computer I always end on top. And that is what keep me going. I don’t know when all this will get settled. I am depressed right now, but I know I have to fight back. I got no option except I live a luxurious life in the end. It is ofcourse my desire but it is my destiny too. I born for it.